Summer training

I used to pride myself on my body and work ethic on maintaining a healthy and active lifestyle. Since I’ve grown older and the more responsibilities I’ve had to tackle on, I’ve realized that I’ve majorly neglected my body. This school year was a little rough for me because I found myself with a lot on my plate. It’s nice to keep active work wise, but once May hit me I realized that I had entered a mild state of depression.

Self-doubt and even self-worth slowly started to climb into my head. I tried my hardest to ignore this vague feeling by mounting another task or by simply taking a nap. I would look at myself in the mirror after a long day and I would just feel self-conscience about who was looking back at me. Needless to say I was depressed. Great! I didn’t have time to be depressed. What I didn’t realize was that me not giving myself a chance to fully acknowledge the fact of what I was feeling, was just making things worse.

As the school year came to a close I was determined to go back to my daily routine of at least running a couple of miles of running and so came today as the first day of “Aley getting her life on track because she cares about herself.” It felt nice to run a total of .5 miles. It felt nice to squat a total of 5 times. It felt good do a total of 20 Russian Twists. Yay!

And… with sweat coming down my face, I smiled to myself, and that ladies and gents felt good!

I know sometimes we get caught up with work and our daily lives consume us, that we forget what truly makes us who we are. I encourage you to take the time to breath, to enjoy yourself, to get back in the gym, get back to tending that garden, to reading that book, to those bubble bathes, to laughing, to pausing, gosh darn it you deserve it. Don’t ignore signs of fatigue, loneliness, guilt, worthlessness.

Listen to yourself. Please yourself. That’s the only person that truly matters.

I’m here for you, as always,

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  • Sports bra= Adidas
  • Leggings= Bally Brand found at Kohl’s
  • Running shoes= Nike
  • Jacket =Adidas
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Work mode

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I was completely lost this morning when my students asked what we’d be working on. Thanksgiving break was nice to me and last Tuesday seemed so far away.

It’s always hard for me to return to school after a long break. I almost have to train my brain to work. However, once we all got into the swing of things, students included it’s a great feeling to be productive.

Yesterday, the boyfriend and I were talking about self-worth. Because of my past relationship, it’s a little hard for me to value myself, I’m learning to love myself again –it’s just hard–

Sometimes my insecurities get in the way, but the boyfriend is by far a better human than I’ll ever be. I guess that’s why he’s my significant other. He’s the other side of me right now. The side that sees all the good, the pretty, the funny, even the perfect when I feel ugly, useless, and boring.

He challenged me to see in the mirror what he sees in me and I’m going to follow direction. Not just for him of course, but for me.

So, in an effort to lift myself up, because that’s healthy; I dressed up for work and did myself up good after the small break. Looking at myself this morning, I felt rest, beautiful, wonderful, and needed by my students. I owe it to them, to my family, the boyfriend, and even to myself to feel good and know I’m more than enough for all the people in my life.

I’m head-to-toe in Forever 21. The turtle-neck is my favorite because it adds a splash of color to the black suit. The shoes are super comfy and they instantly give me a combination of formal and comfort. Also, I decided to add lipstick, and I did so by using the Chocolate color shade by Revlon.

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Falling back

“It’s not selfish to love yourself, take care of yourself, and to make your happiness a priority, it’s necessary.

-Mandy Hale

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I understand that it’s been a long time since my last post. Ten months to be exact. The sad reality is that this site notified me of the long absent months. In a sense, I had completely forgot about blogging. Why? Well because I’ve been busy. I’ve been busy at work, with my students, my responsibilities, I’ve got a boyfriend now, and I’m very active at church.  Those are all great things. Those are all things that I need in my life. Those are all things that make me happy. Honestly. I’m so blessed.

However, all of those things required “me” to do things for others. No for me. The whole purpose of this site was to make room for me. For “Aley Time.” Obviously it hasn’t been happening. There’s no one to blame, but myself.

I’ve been fighting with the word “selfish” a lot lately. In its context it’s a negative word. We don’t want to be selfish, we want to give, we want to share, and we want to put others first. But, what if all that means is compromising ourselves? Then it doesn’t seem all that right. Where does me, myself, and I fit into all of this?

The best way for me to explain my recent acts of “selfish” is to peruse the route that makes me happy. And it makes me happy to blog. Here’s my thinking, I’m going to choose to make myself happy first (the selfish part), because the happier I am with myself–the happier I will be when it comes fulfilling my hectic schedule.

To sum it all up, I’m doing it for you. I’m taking care of me so that I can best serve you.

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So here’s to loving myself. I’m blogging again. My first post is a style post. As you’ve probably noticed I’ve changed my site up  just a little bit. I’ve got categories. Yay! I’m not only going to update you on my clothes, shoes, and makeup, but also on traveling, my life (all the crazy things and people that surround me), food, and of course the spiritual side of me. Please check all the tabs out. Also because it’s sort of a newish site I’ve changed the name from aleyrojas to alwaysaley. It’s just an effort to re-brand myself.

Anyway, it’s fall so I’m sharing what I’ve been wearing lately. Of course I’m sporting fall colors, like green, brown, and red. This is one of my favorite scarves and sweater. They are so neutral and they serve so many different purposes.

Thanks for reading my first post back. Feedback is appreciated.

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Getting over a break up… songs to help you out

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Break ups are bad, mean, hurtful, and heartbreaking. I’m experiencing the worst one of my life. And while there isn’t anything to do, but look to the future, my Pandora has been my best friend. Man she’s been nailing it with empowering music. Making me feel like I can conquer it all. It’s been a crazy, mean, couple of days. I don’t know when the pain will leave, but at the moment all I know is that through P!nk, Katy Perry, and Kelly Clarkson, I’m getting a little bit stronger. Who knew music could be the best pain killer ever. Literally. I scream the lyrics off the top of my lungs every chance I get (mainly in the shower and in the car). 

I know I’m not only lonely, broken, girl out there. And if you are one too, I’m just letting you know, I got you. Times are tough, but how the saying goes “time heals all wounds.” I’m spending that time listening to music. Smiling. Attempting to be happy. Crying a little. But, getting the flippin’ over it. 

Love you! 

 

Here is my coping music. Feel free to jam out, cry, and smile– because YOU are way better off. AND you are more than valuable. 

1. Stronger (What doesn’t kill you) by Kelly Clarkson

      Best Moment: 

You think you got the best of me
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I’d come running back
Baby you don’t know me, cause you’re dead wrong

2. Roar by Katy Perry 

   Best Moment: 

Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero

3. Part of Me by Katy Perry 

   Best Moment: 

You chewed me up
And spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth

You took my light
You drained me down
But that was then
And this is now

Now look at me!

This is the part of me

That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

4. So What by P!nk

   Best Moment: 

So, so what?
I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don’t need you

And guess what
I’m having more fun
And now that we’re done
I’m gonna show you tonight

I’m alright

5. Blow Me (One Last Kiss) by P!nk  

   Best Moment: 

Eyes on fire, eyes on fire, and they burn from all the tears
I’ve been crying, I’ve been crying, I’ve been dying over you
Tie a knot in the rope, tryin’ to hold, tryin’ to hold,
But there’s nothing to grab so I let go

I think I’ve finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss)
You think I’m just too serious, I think you’re full of shit
My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss). 

Note: Watching the video makes the pain not as bad. Seriously scream these lyrics, get “him” out of your head!

If you have good jams. Send them way, goodness knows I need them now more than anything. 

 

Skirt up

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Despite my misfortune, I’ve never felt so much better about myself. I feel super cute. Honestly, sometimes you just have to tell yourself “I’m freaking beautiful.” I’ve been going through a terrible break-up. To get me through each day, I’ve been dressing up, way different than I did when I was with “him.” It only seems fair that I change –for the best! I’ve had to find the courage to love myself first, to stand up for my heart, and snap out of it. Trust me NOOO guy is worth it. I know I seem to say it with such easy, trust me I’ve been a mess, but each day that passes I get a little bit stronger. You have to fall pretty deep to lift yourself up! I’m slowing jumping back up. 

So this outfit makes me feel like a million bucks! I know it’s December, but seriously we have had the best weather! And I feel truly blessed. I just love the skirt-tight combo. I’ve been rocking it for the past few weeks. The skirt is very winter-like. 

Its time for me to smile and trust that their is a bigger-better-plan for me. 

Everybody has to carry a cross, I’m doing that now– and it will be okay. 

Outfit: top, tights, and skirt from JC Penny’s, heels gifted, jewelry from Forver21. 

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